hes back with her. i repeat he is back with her... it's hard to belive after all of that hes back with her. I've gave up on him, fuck the dreams and everything. These guys that my eyes are on are just utter dicks and they all let me down. Even my closest 2 boy-friends in the year have let me down. One is not talking to me as much as we use to, hes turned into a basterd that hooks and bums on other guys just becuase he wants to be the 'bad' man ... which for me is horrible, becuase i pefere him how he was use to, where he didnt actuly care.... where i didnt care.. where we were really close, now i feel like theres something in between, and its his mates........ The other one, just accuses me on saying i fancy ****which isnt true anymore... then asks me every 5 seconds who i like and just bullys me upon it. I'm sick of it, hes nice to me yeah but sometimes its too far. How old am i? I'm 14..... im fourteen, im four fucking teen. I dont need a dick n my life to mess me up becuase i'm already in the shit. If hes mine then hes mine i can't just appear like that it's not going to make any difference yes i mean it might make you feel better to be around but really.... the hopes are high and the fails are even higher... chinese saying *hay mong yoot die sat mong yoot die* ....... i should just let it roll on itself. If its mine, its mine. If its not then no matter how hard i try... it dosent belong to me. I know, utterly know that the 4 guys up there arent for me..... And i should just be happy of what i got and just be myself again, i don't need them to make myself happy. I will mature myself.