Sorry but..

This will proboly be my last post.. in a long time now. Not the fact that i'm going away or my internet is getting cut off but, i've been a sell out nad have moved on to xanga. Yet i still think blogger is amazing i just cant work out why the error thing is there. So i give up and move on. But anyway i wanted to say........... LANEIGE STUFF CAME! wooo i love it, and i'm happy and bright again. Also i went nottingham in the easter and has become an addict of BOYS OVER FLOWERS and KIM HYUN JOONG.. ha i've discovered this blog that is all about bof and i can say i love it, the person (hannah) that works on it is really amazing, someone that can possibly always update on it! boys over flowers is really good. Now i really love korean, and i want to go korea. Ohh SS501 are my fav band right now. So yeah, byebye blogger<3

hes back with her. i repeat he is back with her... it's hard to belive after all of that hes back with her. I've gave up on him, fuck the dreams and everything. These guys that my eyes are on are just utter dicks and they all let me down. Even my closest 2 boy-friends in the year have let me down. One is not talking to me as much as we use to, hes turned into a basterd that hooks and bums on other guys just becuase he wants to be the 'bad' man ... which for me is horrible, becuase i pefere him how he was use to, where he didnt actuly care.... where i didnt care.. where we were really close, now i feel like theres something in between, and its his mates........ The other one, just accuses me on saying i fancy ****which isnt true anymore... then asks me every 5 seconds who i like and just bullys me upon it. I'm sick of it, hes nice to me yeah but sometimes its too far. How old am i? I'm 14..... im fourteen, im four fucking teen. I dont need a dick n my life to mess me up becuase i'm already in the shit. If hes mine then hes mine i can't just appear like that it's not going to make any difference yes i mean it might make you feel better to be around but really.... the hopes are high and the fails are even higher... chinese saying *hay mong yoot die sat mong yoot die* ....... i should just let it roll on itself. If its mine, its mine. If its not then no matter how hard i try... it dosent belong to me. I know, utterly know that the 4 guys up there arent for me..... And i should just be happy of what i got and just be myself again, i don't need them to make myself happy. I will mature myself.

Life is down.

Everything is just on my nerve.

Everything, everything, absolutly everything at the moment in my life is realy annoying, Everything is getting on my nerve. Just abouts everything. I know that my mind is going to pop.

1) Laneige products still haven't arrived
2) Boys!?!?!?!?!
3) Friends and closest to me.
4) My hair.......
5) My face is fucked up.
6) My throat!!!!!!
7) This easter.

I'm going to have to ramble but it dosent bother me,
Laneige... where in the world are you. My auntie sent it on the March 3rd... and today is the 4th and i stil havnt recived it. Its annoying me so bad! Realy bad, so much time and money on it and it hasnt arrived. I just know if i recive it then everything would clear my mind up.

Boys-
They are piss take. you just don't know what there thinking do you. There always having something on mind, it pisses me off to think about they are thinking. Im just ignoring the lads at my school now becuase there horrible, None of them are worth my time. I'm giving up on them right now. I mean it there all dicks.

Friends, Closest-
I'm so stuck, who are my true friends, i still think i havnt met them yet, it means isabelle aswell even though i can see she was one of my bestest friends, im guessing she still is, just really... i don't know. I want to meet new freinds and experience other things in life, i want to start making friends with people ive not spoken to in my life.............I need some time on my own. I feel like im trying to be someone i'm not.....I feel like im maturing but im actully only 14. I'm acting like im older than what i am..... do you get it. In other words, im trying to be smething i'm not. My mum and dad really dont get on with me even my one only sibling brother is getting on my nerve.

My hair, i just got a hair cut possibly 3 hours ago and its horrible, fuck offf:@

My face is a fuck up

This easter, so whats fucking happeneing, when am i going nottingham, am i going cinemas or not? dance nation?????????????????????????????????/ town on tue?????/ oh fucks sake.
The worlds upside for me.

I'm in the mood to ramble.

I'm in the mood to ramble and i don't care about anything.

So i got a ring yesterday and isabelle go tht eexact same one, ha its looks nicer in sunlight but yeah its pretty, its going to be something wear most days now but when i put my toner/cream on it annoys me a little bit.

I'm getting moved down in p.e, i really try and do it. But i guess sometimes the effort i make is rubbish so this thur is the only time i can prove to her that im capable alright.

Thr brownie was tasty and everything more.
Dance nation 9 days, how lovley.
Might go town on saturday i don't know....................
Want to go nottingham but im not sure if i still can.

LANEIGE IF YOU HERE ME WHERE ARE YOU IM SO WORRIED! PLEASE COEM TO ME AND I WILL LOOK AFTER YOU FOREVER AND EVER! PLEASE COME IF YOU HEAR ME.

Im crazy but you dont know how sad i am right now, il even pray and everything. :(
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Update and randomness

I'm getting to the point, im getting rather worried now. Im worried becuase the package has still not arrived to the house. My auntie from HK sent the package last week (monday) and then she also sent something to my toher auntie which lives in nottingham, and she got thier package on saturday. So im realy worried becuase its been a whole week, i keep saying to myself its the time difference after we have changed the times and it takes longer becuase this is a little vilage etc. But i know im making excuses, i know somehow its lost while sending it here and i am really worried becuase what happens if its realy lost..? Will i loose the thigns ive been waited for. Im so dissapointed, i have been checking myphone alot today to see if mum had texted me back becuase i told her to text me when it arriives. So yeah its not come and if its not here by tomorrwow then i reallly will flop and get all moddy. So one more and thats it.

Back to the good things. I have the busiest week ever this week, well today i was meant o be getting the laneige stuff so i would be happy... Yeah but i didnt so okay. Anyway tomorrow there is dance aid so yes yes yes! Then wed we have crazy socks day but il just wear anything. On thur im going to see Macbeth with my class so thats should be alright. On friday i have nothing realy. Chillaxing.

So yeah my brownie is ready mmmm!! Cakes wont let me down, only cakes! Oh yeah over the weekend i got my BOBBI BROWN GEL LINER !!!! It works so good, it dries up fster and is so smooth to work with, tooatlly worth 13 pounds! So i was so happy with that and il do some posting of pictures maybe later becuase my blogspot is messed up and i cant deal with the fuss right now before ive not got my stuff from HK.
I went shopping yesterday with Isabelle and spent it on shopping for clothes etc. That was alright. So yeah thats it, my day was pretty amazing! I found that im in love with blush again!!!!!

I got a new eyeliner guys!

why?

does it keep saying internet abortion....
whatd oes that mean.
its pissing me off.
i was try to go on onsugar.com/xanga/ and to make my own from scarth.
but who cares no one reads it anywaaay
xx